ok I'll admit it. I'm an ox and a moron and for the slow people that would be an oxymoron. No seriously. I'm a loan officer but hate debt. I love to read but SUCK at grammar and writing. And my personal favorite -- can sing and play piano but have no rhythym! Mom never could understand that but it's true.
But the one I'm struggling with now is my hair. I love my hair but hate doing anything with it. I hate cutting it so I'll wear it pulled back, love to experiment with color but I love my natural hair color. But tomorrow is my day. I get paid and I'm going for broke.
I'm looking to get a pixie-style hair cut (or as just really short) and dye it probably a dark auburn. OMG! I'm gonna freak but I've been waiting to do this forever.
I wonder... Hoss will you come with me and hold my hand ;)
I struggle with hair, I'm not any good with it. I can't get it to curl or straighten. and OMG it is THICK! Which sounds all fine and dandy but not in the hot louisiana weather. But the problem with short is well I'm fat and so is my face and I feel it makes it look worse but I'm just gonna do it. But I also don't care about my hair. It's hair, it will grow back!
So tomorrow - here goes everything!
Thursday, July 7, 2011
Tuesday, July 5, 2011
The first cut is the deepest
For people who know me they know that I am naturally lazy. I wouldn't work if I didn't HAVE to (well at first I wouldn't), I get out of cleaning and cooking as much as I can and I HATE HATE HATE anything that resembles exercising.
The other day I was talking with my boss and she was talking about her husband and insurance and other stuff and I finally figured out part of my lack of motivation for weight loss. Last year around this time, I went through a big push to lose the 70+ lbs I gained since I met and married Hoss. Even kept a blog but I didn't see or feel any real results.
But I have figured out more of my reasons.
1: It doesn't matter! My hubby loves me no matter what size I am YAY for HOSS!
2: It doesn't matter! At 23 I was diagnosed with HBP, doc even told me if I lost all the weight I would still be on the meds. So why should I??
3: It's true, you can't do it without a buddy. And since I don't care for people and they most definately don't care for me - I gots no buddies. :( I kept the blog for someone I thought would be a buddy but there was a distinct lack of connection. Maybe it was time, maybe it was distance, maybe it was just a lack of buddiness. Who knows, who cares anymore - it didn't work.
4: No support. Again it's a double-edged sword, Hoss loves me no matter what which also means he doesn't push me and Mom pushes the wrong buttons.
5: Bribes didn't work so what's the motivation! The scale doesn't motivate me to lose it (and it was a scary number today!) I tried bribing myself but that didn't work. Maybe Hoss should do the bribing??? Whatcha think Hoss? $$ for sustained weightloss or books, well e-books since I have to go electronically because we have a dog that loves books more than I do :) (Dang Huckabay!!!)
6. I get depressed easily. No I know it's not a quick fix but something ALWAYS throughs me off and usually it depresses me and makes me not care even more about the problem. Usually it's a lack of dropage on the scales or more often in the feel of clothes or growth in top (because that soo needs to happen)
So that's my problem. After Hoss told me he could tell I had gained back the weight I had lost plus, I stepped on the scale today just to see. It was interesting. And I might start my journey over, maybe look for a local buddy if Hoss won't stay with it :)
Anyone want a buddy??????
The other day I was talking with my boss and she was talking about her husband and insurance and other stuff and I finally figured out part of my lack of motivation for weight loss. Last year around this time, I went through a big push to lose the 70+ lbs I gained since I met and married Hoss. Even kept a blog but I didn't see or feel any real results.
But I have figured out more of my reasons.
1: It doesn't matter! My hubby loves me no matter what size I am YAY for HOSS!
2: It doesn't matter! At 23 I was diagnosed with HBP, doc even told me if I lost all the weight I would still be on the meds. So why should I??
3: It's true, you can't do it without a buddy. And since I don't care for people and they most definately don't care for me - I gots no buddies. :( I kept the blog for someone I thought would be a buddy but there was a distinct lack of connection. Maybe it was time, maybe it was distance, maybe it was just a lack of buddiness. Who knows, who cares anymore - it didn't work.
4: No support. Again it's a double-edged sword, Hoss loves me no matter what which also means he doesn't push me and Mom pushes the wrong buttons.
5: Bribes didn't work so what's the motivation! The scale doesn't motivate me to lose it (and it was a scary number today!) I tried bribing myself but that didn't work. Maybe Hoss should do the bribing??? Whatcha think Hoss? $$ for sustained weightloss or books, well e-books since I have to go electronically because we have a dog that loves books more than I do :) (Dang Huckabay!!!)
6. I get depressed easily. No I know it's not a quick fix but something ALWAYS throughs me off and usually it depresses me and makes me not care even more about the problem. Usually it's a lack of dropage on the scales or more often in the feel of clothes or growth in top (because that soo needs to happen)
So that's my problem. After Hoss told me he could tell I had gained back the weight I had lost plus, I stepped on the scale today just to see. It was interesting. And I might start my journey over, maybe look for a local buddy if Hoss won't stay with it :)
Anyone want a buddy??????
Saturday, July 2, 2011
You're the bird...
So Hoss got me looking at Tumblr. Seriously, I'm not sure what to think of it. But it might be a new avenue for my thoughts that some snoopers can't see. Oh heck, like I care about them. But I was thinking maybe for a guilty pleasure of mine and my opinion of books. I love books, I read tons of stuff mostly what Hoss doesn't like me to read :) Somedays I hate living in the Baptist South.
So we'll see what happens, I may not even use it that much.
But OMG we have a new friend for the week. ROXY! My brother's dog. He and his wife went on a vacay and needed a sitter for her. She's a sweet little dachsund (spelling?) and Huck loves her! The Mini-Beast and Bexar are more indifferent than anything else. So it's going to be an interesting week!
So we'll see what happens, I may not even use it that much.
But OMG we have a new friend for the week. ROXY! My brother's dog. He and his wife went on a vacay and needed a sitter for her. She's a sweet little dachsund (spelling?) and Huck loves her! The Mini-Beast and Bexar are more indifferent than anything else. So it's going to be an interesting week!
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